so

when blankets are no longer protection from the cold,
what's left to do? when an unexpected turn of events lash at you
when everything you prepared goes completely opposite
what happens?
what happens when the time and effort placed on practicing is wasted from a month of laziness?
when it's finally time, shots are dry. knees sound. sweat breaks.
and all you can see is defeat
and all you can see is failure.

a deer caught in the headlights
he's not a bad person, no not at all.
he just...got started on the wrong foot?
everything seems to wrong just for him, pleads.
everything prophesied is coming true.
great. just what he wanted
he knows he's something. what's stopping him..?

you can't live life without regrets.
for every action, there is a consequence.
forgetting about them is not the same as living without them.
that distinct time will haunt you.
haunt you.
the red marks are forever stained in your tears.
ingrained in your mind.

a smile won't do.
reconfiguration will.
but we've been waiting for that for years already.