trust

all this time, i've been worried.
worried about life.
about the future.
what does it hold for me?
what can a 55 in calculus to for me? a 64 in accounting?
where can i end up?
i don't trust my parents.
i know that they want what's good for me. i understand.
and i'm learning to respect that.
but i made a vow, that i will pave my own path.
and accept the consequences that come with it.
i was wrong.
i don't make my own path.
He does.
do i know what?
i don't have to worry.
i don't have to worry about anything.
i'll do what i can within my power.
and i will leave it to Him.
because only He knows what is truly best.
the future is blurry.
i can't see through the fog but i do know one thing.
and that is His intention. not mine. not my parents.
His.
i trust in His power.
i trust that He will hold my hand and show me the right sign to face.
why am i worrying about something not within my reach?
suffering the stress that comes with numbers on a paper?
swallow my pride.
speak through me.
declare Your reign.
let the place be filled with intimacy and love and grace and You.